You know that feeling? It’s a sick one. In your gut. Sometimes you catch it early. Two minutes down the road on the way to the airport.
“Did you pack the swimsuits?”
“YES! I got everything ok?!”
“Sorry . . . (long pause) . . . passports?
“Shoot! Turn around.”
It’s nice when the light bulb goes on in time. Nothing hurt. We can still make it.
It’s not so nice when you’re sitting on the airplane, or unpacking your boxes, and it hits like a lightning bolt. That thing you really need in your new place is the thing you left in the old place.
But there is a whole other layer. A deeper one.
The one thing that almost all of us (at some level) forget to take with us in a massive life transition is . . . ourselves.
Who we were in the last place gets washed out in the new place. Our new life demands our attention. So we give it. The new people don’t know us yet. So we show them the surface. There is a language that we don’t speak (even if we’re “returning home”). So we get by. The systems, the patterns, the customs, the culture, the way of life are all radically different. So we scramble. We make do. We figure it out.
And then we wake up . . . weeks later — sometimes months — occasionally years — and the light bulb goes on . . . I forgot myself.
And it feels too late to turn around.
Transition challenges personality.
It attacks normalcy.
It assaults identity.
So if you’re waking up in the middle of a massive life transition, take heart, you’re not the only one who doesn’t feel like yourself.
But that helps nothing right?
“Great, everyone is screwed up but I DON’T KNOW WHO I AM!”
Here are a few thoughts on reclaiming your identity when you wake up and realize you left it sitting on the kitchen table in a place you can’t get back to.
1. Learn the difference between inside and outside.
When you move from one place to another, you immediately start responding to outside things — the external forces that are pressing against your daily existence.
You have to. You’re supposed to. You’re not doing it wrong.
In your core, there is a pile of values that didn’t change when everything on the outside did. There are beliefs, passions, habits, dreams, joys, frustrations, and pet peeves that define who you really are.
You should know those.
Like really — know them.
Not just in response to a question but intimately — KNOW THEM.
List them out.
Spend time with them.
Pick them apart.
Put them to the test.
See what gets cut — and what doesn’t.
You should be the top scholar of your own core — but maybe you never had to be until now. Maybe your inside has always been supported by the outside so that you didn’t have to think about it.
Now you do.
When you KNOW who you are in your core you can go ANYWHERE with confidence.
When you DON’T, you’ll be stuck in the anxiety of a missing identity because you’re relying on the outside stuff to define you.
2. Know what makes you, YOU.
Little y, big Y.
Just because you have moved doesn’t mean YOU have arrived. Not all of YOU.
What did you give up, for the sake of the move, that feels like it was actually a part of you?
What did you DO back there that you don’t do anymore?
What did you leave behind that feeds your soul?
This one might sting a bit . . . who are you blaming that on?
Here’s the kicker — it’s a REAL challenge to do life (as you know it) in a new place. It doesn’t look the same. It doesn’t feel the same. It doesn’t even smell the same.
I’ve known marathon runners who threw up on their first run in China because of air pollution.
I’ve known musicians who couldn’t find an outlet for their music in their new spot.
Chefs who can’t get baking powder.
Artists who can’t find art stores.
More often than not though, it comes down to the fact that their motivation just got kicked in the gut. They had to spend so much of their energy re-learning how to do regular life stuff that they really struggle to find the space for the things they love.
Transition is the process of becoming YOU again. Did you catch that? It’s a process. Movement from one highly functional place to another with a completely dysfunctional dip in the middle.
When the time is right, remember who YOU ARE.
Finish the sentence. I AM ___________________.
A people person?
A party animal?
Then dig into the HEART of why YOU are who YOU are. What is it about that thing that makes you come alive? Maybe you can’t do it in the same way but maybe . . . just maybe . . . you can. Or you can find a substitute that recaptures some of it. Or you can create a space that hits the same mark in a different way. Or you might just discover something new about yourself while you’re digging around.
The point is that if a piece of YOU is missing in your new place, you don’t have to settle for it.
But we do.
We run the “I used to be so good at” or “I gave up so much to” or “I just can’t anymore” narratives in our head until we believe that there is no way around it.
Don’t give up that easily. This is YOU we’re talking about.
3. Postpone your expectations. Don’t forget them.
I HATE the phrase “lower your expectations.”
I get it. I understand the heart behind it. Going in expecting to be able to function at the same level as you did in the last place is a recipe for a letdown.
“So just expect it to be horrible. Then you won’t be disappointed.”
No. Just no. Stop saying that.
Expect delays. Expect challenges. Expect frustration. Expect hiccups, and speed bumps, and problems (big and small) ALONG THE WAY to a fully functional, thriving life where you are not only enjoying the best bits of who YOU are but you are pouring them out on the people around you.
Write this down – it’s important.
You should NEVER compare the beginning of the new thing to the end of the last thing.
That’s not fair.
That’s like a farmer planting seeds and coming back to harvest the next day.
“Why is there no corn here?! I PLANTED CORN YESTERDAY!!”
I’m not a farmer but even I know the answer to that. “Because you chopped it all down a few months ago.”
It took time in the last place. You had to figure it out. You had to meet the people. You had to build the relationships. You had to learn the systems. You had to set things in motion and find the rhythm.
None of that is in place when you move into a new thing.
None of it.
You chopped it down.
So plant the seed. Set the right environment. Put the right things in. Keep the wrong things out. Start with some tiny roots. Then give yourself the space and the grace to emerge in due time.
You’ll get there — even if you can’t get there yet.
If you are in the middle of a big move or a massive life transition, there is so much hope. There is hope in the collective groanings of “I am not alone.” There is hope in the process of transition. There is hope in the core of who YOU are.
If you have forgotten yourself — go get yourself back.
Originally published at The Culture Blend