Pregnant On The Field

Today I’m excited to talk with author of A Story of Pregnancy and Faith: In hope of what we cannot see. Dorette Skinner is from South Africa and lives in Thailand and she has shared at A Life Overseas before. Read to the end for a surprise. Without further ado, my conversation with Dorette.

Thank you for sharing a bit of your story today. What is your book about?

Hi Amy, it’s my pleasure. A little over a year ago I became pregnant the second time. And while my baby was being shaped in my womb, an idea started to take shape in my mind. As a physical therapist, I was not new to the idea of pregnancy – I even gave a few prenatal and antenatal classes years ago. But with my first pregnancy I realized that nothing I have learned could truly prepare me for the experience. I think the same is true in faith, we often learn more as we grow than we can ever study in books. I wanted a physical reminder of all the lessons I’ve learned along the way. Preferably in a format I could share with others, because my greatest desire during my pregnancy was to know that I was not alone. As my second pregnancy played out, it naturally became a story filled with thoughts and reflections of not only being pregnant, but learning to live in a foreign country and how to share the good news with those around me. By the time I gave birth I had a baby and also the first draft of a manuscript. A few months later I ‘gave birth’ to a story of pregnancy and faith.

Lots of people want to write a book, but you actually did it! What compelled you to complete this book?

Great question. I always loved writing and I was scribbling out poems since I can remember. Because English is my second language I’m sure it wasn’t very good. But writing also became my coping mechanism and way of making sense of the world. I actually wrote a book once when I was in my early twenties – the same idea of writing a chapter each month for a year. So I knew it was doable (even if I’m grateful I never published that book – I still had too much left to learn). I started blogging about three years ago and thought if I ever had an idea that could not possibly fit into a 700 word blog post, I would like to attempt writing a book again. I don’t like books where it feels like you’re just reading the same thing over and over again in different words. Because I had no idea how my own story would end, it made it more interesting. So all the plot twists and turns of the second story also took me by surprise… In the end being able to finish the book became something positive to focus on in the midst of great loss. And I am grateful that God (in His grace) do not only provide ways for us to cope, sometimes He can also use our imperfect stories to encourage others.

How else are you helping pregnant expat women? 

Because I am very isolated (There are no other expat mothers in the small town where we live), I have to keep on reaching out to old friends or seek community online. I found that many groups are mostly topic related, discussing pregnancy, breastfeeding or potty training and every time your child is past that stage you have to move on to the next. So I started a Facebook Group for pregnant moms called “Moms Growing Since 16’/17” and invited my pregnant friends from all over the world, with the idea that we can grow together as our children become older and go through the same stages. I’m excited to see if God will open any other doors in the near future to come alongside pregnant women/new moms. Especially to encourage women who also find themselves isolated in this season of motherhood.

This book isn’t  just for pregnant women. Who else could benefit or enjoy this book?

I think because it a story, anyone who like reading about other people’s experiences and getting a peek into a different place or culture would enjoy reading it. Especially those who have a heart for serving cross-culturally. I wrote mostly with women in mind, so men may not appreciate some of the details. It is not a “how to” book, a “40 week devotional” or “what to expect when you’re expecting” kind of book. I hope it will be a “me too” book instead and I like to think even women who are not pregnant would be able to relate to my story in some way.

What have you learned from having a baby and writing a book that has helped you living overseas?

I have learned that something as little as 500 words written every second day during nap times can add up to a manuscript. That God’s design is amazing and with Him on our side we can not only do hard things, but come out better on the other side.

What is your hope for people who read this?

I hope that by sharing my imperfect story, it will give others permission to embrace their own. Knowing that they are not alone and as we grow in faith it can sometimes be uncomfortable in this world, but it will be totally worth it in the end!

Dorette, thanks for sharing a bit of your journey as an author and mom with us.

Have you been pregnant on the field? Leave a comment (even if you haven’t been pregnant, I haven’t and I enjoyed this book immensely) and you might win a copy of Dorette’s book. Winners will be notified by Friday.

You Owe Me Grace


I am 30 weeks and a gazillion eons pregnant. My belly is the size of Canada and my brain is the size of a mustard seed (and, trust me, this mustard seed isn’t up to moving any mountains). Pregnancy and childbirth – it’s a Serious Design Flaw, if you ask me. And it’s not like there aren’t better systems out there on the market. Kangaroos, for example, have a perfectly reasonable reproductive system in place.

(Please note, if you’re tempted to mention Eve, original sin, or anything to do with apples in the comments, don’t. I’m in no mood.)

So I’m currently hanging out with our toddler in the land of ice cream and honey (also known as Australia) awaiting the birth of our second child. Meanwhile my husband, Mike, is starting a new job in Laos, overseeing an in-country move, finding a house, buying a car, etc. He won’t be here for another two months.

I was going to write something about pregnancy and cross-cultural living but, well, mustard seed. Instead, I’m going to share an unpublished piece I wrote shortly after we moved to Laos called You Owe Me Grace. This piece still makes me laugh and think. I hope you enjoy it.

Dom Lennox Head 28.4.13-7

You Owe Me Grace

Ever since my husband, Mike, and I moved to Laos three months ago, perhaps the single word that has best described life is, “eventful”. Few weekends, however, have been as eventful as this last one. This weekend was the first time we bought a puppy home, the first time we cooked dinner in our new place, the first day we took possession of a golf cart as our household vehicle, and the first time we crashed it.

The town where we live, Luang Prabang, is small enough to navigate without a car. We’re still debating whether we’ll get a motorcycle or make do with our feet and bicycles, but while we figure it out we’ve decided to take our landlord up on her offer to use the golf cart that was parked on the property when we first arrived.

I’d like to be able to explain how this afternoon’s accident happened, but I’m not entirely sure. I’ve seen Mike safely navigate four wheel drive trucks backwards down dirt tracks barely wide enough to fit a bicycle (though, come to think of it, how we got stuck down that track in the first place could be the subject of a whole other article, and I’ll tell you right now it certainly wasn’t my fault). I’ve been Mike’s passenger on the back of motorcycles and in cars that he has capably piloted on three continents. I’d say without hesitating that he is a better driver than I am.

Except, apparently, when it comes to golf carts.

The golf cart’s not hard. I mean, sure, it doesn’t have lights, or turn signals, or power steering, or brakes that work well. You can’t see out the plastic windshield at the front very well because it’s all scratched up. And you do have to come in the house on an angle or you’ll bottom out. But, still, the thing is significantly smaller than the width of our driveway, which is why I remain puzzled as to how exactly Mike managed to ramp the curb while turning into the house and then drive full speed into our gate.

As “full speed” here was approximately the velocity of a decrepit ride-on lawnmower, no one was hurt – unless you count the abdominal strain undoubtedly experienced by the three neighborhood men standing nearby during their subsequent laughing fit. These men didn’t even try to pretend that it wasn’t the funniest thing they’d seen all month, and I can’t say I blame them. How often do you get to see two foreigners, carrying three kilos of tomatoes and drinking iced coffee out of a plastic bag, pilot a golf cart into a stationary object?

“I think it’s OK,” I said to Mike after we came to a standstill, laughing a little myself and having no clue whether what I’d just said was in any way true.

I hopped out and stared at the front of the golf cart. It was leaking a black, oily-looking, fluid.

Mike was considerably less amused than the rest of us.

“I don’t think it’s OK,” he said, grim, as he got out to survey the damage. “If that’s oil, then it’s definitely not OK.”

The neighborhood men had wandered over to take a closer look.

Bo di,” I said to them, shrugging.

No, they agreed with my rudimentary Lao, “cannot do”. The men went on to say many other things, too, but goodness knows what they were. The options are endless, really. They could have been offering to help us push the cart into the driveway, or they could have been inquiring as to whether we had the brains God gave a water buffalo. Even if I could speak Lao fluently, however, I’m still not sure I would have been able to understand them given that they were still laughing hysterically during the entire one-way exchange.

As Mike and the neighborhood men maneuvered the cart into the driveway I totted the tomatoes, destined for that night’s adventure in “make your own pasta sauce”, into the house. I was chopping away by the time Mike came in.

“I can’t believe I did that,” he said.

“Honey, it’s really OK,” I said. “No one was hurt. It can be fixed. It’s not a big deal.”

“I know,” Mike said, sighing. “But I feel stupid.”

“Yeah,” I said supportively. “I can see why.”

This didn’t quite make him laugh, but it came close.

“You’re taking this much better than I am,” he said. “That’s really good.”

I thought this last statement over while I did the rest of the chopping, and 36 tomatoes later I’d realized something that I’m not at all proud of.

By far the largest part of me genuinely isn’t that fussed about the golf cart. Accidents happen. The money and hassle that will be involved in getting it fixed are annoying, sure, but they are completely overshadowed by the much more important fact that no one was hurt.

But I also realized that there is a small and grubby part of me that can be secretly glad when things like this happen to Mike – a part of me that claps its hands and makes a notation on a mental list of, “silly things that Mike has done in the year and a half since we’ve gotten married”. This list has things on it like: parking ticket in LA (two), leaving a bank card in an ATM, and… driving the golf cart into the gate.

I’m not sure whether it makes it better or worse that I’m not cataloging these incidents because I’m secretly more frustrated than I act when they happen. No, what is happening is much more self-centered than mere repression. The small part of me that rubs its hands in glee at moments like these is happy because I know, I just know, that one of these days I’m going to do something dumb on a scale so epic that Mike cannot yet fathom it. I’m going to book non-refundable international airtickets for the wrong day, or write off a vehicle considerably more expensive than the golf cart, or give the wrong bank account number when I’m trying to transfer money internationally.

Oh, wait, I’ve already done that last one.

The point is, part of me is glad to tell Mike that a dented golf cart is no big deal because I’m hoping – no, expecting – that when I do this next silly thing Mike will smile serenely and tell me everything is fine. Because he will, after all, owe me grace.

Somehow I don’t think that’s exactly the spirit of what Jesus had in mind in Mark 12:31 when he instructed us that we should love our neighbor as ourselves, even if my actions in being unruffled by golf cart mishaps seem to check the box.

Oh well, I’m sure Mike will give me more opportunities in the months and years to come to get my attitude and my actions in a decent place at the same time. And who knows, I may even give him some. After all, there’s a first time for everything.

How do you handle these sorts of mishaps (which can happen a lot when you’re living overseas)?

Have you ever caught yourself feeling “owed” grace? How do you combat that?

Lisa and Mike overlooking Luang Prabang Laos

Lisa McKayauthor, psychologist, sojourner in Laos

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